The worst feeling by far is being surrounded by and interacting with so many on a daily basis but feeling so fucking alone.
Are you proud of yourself? Are you glad that you took for granted something good? Are you glad you left me broken? Are you glad you were able to act like I meant something to you and I believed it all? Are you glad I fell for your lies? Are you glad I’m out of your life? Because you sure act like it. I hope you’re proud of yourself.
I’m trying so hard to be strong but I don’t think I’ve ever been so hurt. With everything going on in my life right now, I would’ve never expect for you to cause me more pain. I’m physically and mentally hurting so much. I invested so much of myself into you. You made me happy when no one else could. I believed that I made you happy too. I believed you when you said I was the strongest woman you know. I believed you when you said I’m not just your best friend, but your soulmate. I believed you when you said that no girl has ever treated you as amazing as I treated you. I believed you when you said you loved me. Set the relationship aspect aside, why would you ever hurt a friend so much. I can’t even consider a friendship with you after this. I let my guard down and trusted you and you took advantage. After all the signs, I still stuck by your side. Why? Because I genuinely care. The thought that everything you ever told me was a lie makes me sick to my stomach. But I also blame myself. I’m the one who let my guard down. I’m the one who let down the wall that I’ve been building up for years. I’m the one who trusted you. So I’m the one who has to deal with the pain.
Despite it all, I never meant anything to you.